Friday, April 17, 2009

as of now...




^^^^^^^^
that man= my world :]
and i honestly dont know how i'd get through life
without him =[
thats why im doing my best to take care of him
my best to be the best i can be for him
ever since i was a little girl i had him wrapped around my finger
he's wrapped around my heart
a while back i was about 10 or 11 when my dad had heart surgery
=[
it was something hard to go through because
we didnt know what might've come of it
whether good or bad.
well he made it and recovered quite well
on tuesday 4/13/09
my father went to the doctors, which is awkward, because
he hates going there, seriously, i know somethings wrong when he goes,
well,unfortunately, i was right
he didnt wanna tell my siblings and me anything
he was feeling sick, from his heart again,
he's always been at risk but this time its bad
he was told that he has 50% bad cholesterol and
he's at risk of having a heart attack =[
its very scary but everyday i pray that things get better with him
and i might sound like a baby right now, but i love him
and he's taught me so many things
like how to be strong when times get tough
how to smile at random people
how to crack jokes
he brightens my day with one of his lectures and helps me
realize what i'm doing wrong in life,to never GIVE UP :]
and honestly i couldnt have been more blessed with a dad like him
from the time he "broke" the heart off of my favorite t-shirt, to the time
he accidently sspit his gum in my hair
and the time he pulled my overalls and ripped them and everyone saw my butt
at wal mart
i was blessed with the best understanding father anyone could have,
i guess i just got lucky

Monday, April 13, 2009

apple and lettuce



I LOVE MY PUPPY =]
MAN SO I TOTALLY GOT SCREWED OVER
BY "APPLE" HE SAID HE DIDNT WANT gf
BUT IT WAS A LIE
HE JUST DIDNT WANT ME AS A GF
MAYBE HE SHOULDVE GROWN THE BALLS AND JUST SAID IT RIGHT??
STUPID MOTHERFUDGECAKE
HES NOT WORTH MY ANGER BUT IT GOT TO ME
I PUT TOO MUCH EFFORT IN GUYS
AND I NEED TO STOP
I'VE BEEN SPENDING A LOT OF TIME WITH "LETTUCE" AND
JES! FINALLY HES BEING THE WAY I WANTED HIM TO
BE THE FIRST TIME
HE'S SO SWEET BUT I DUNNO I STILL HAVE THAT DOUBT IN THE
BACK OF MY MIND THAT TELLS ME TO BE CAREFUL
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST LET IT GO???


Friday, April 10, 2009

WHEN IM MAD



I DONT TAKE IT OUT ON PEOPLE
I TRY TO BREATHE AND LET IT OUT
BUT I HARDLY EVER GET MAD SO WHENIM MAD im maddddd
im sorry =[
i just need to cry it out

FUCK






DUDE I FEEL LIKE CRAP TODAY =[
I HATE MEN
THEYRE SNEAKY AND THEY SAY WHAT YOU WANNA HEAR
THEN THEY FIND SOMEONE NEW TO MESS WITH AND YOURE DONE
ITS LIKE WOW I DONT HAVE FEELINGS SO DONT WORRY I'LL LIVE
FUCK YOU STUPID MOTHERFUDGE CAKE!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

<333






EVERY WONDER WHY THE GOOD END UP WITH THE BAD
&&
THE BAD END UP WITH THE GOOD??
HMMM I DO!
MY HEART IS TAKEN BUT IM NOT UGHH HE NEEDS TO OPEN HIS EYES ALREADY =[

Friday, April 3, 2009

<3 IM A KILLAAA





SAYS IT ALL =]



MAN SOMETIMES LIFE IS SO TRIPPY



HAHA I LOVE THEM THIS WAS FUN
THEYRE SUCH DRUNKS =]
ANYWAYS
SO WEDNESDAY NIGHT I FELL AND SPRAINED MY FINGER
BOOO FREAKIN HOOO
IT HURT
AND TODAY I LEARNED THAT I CANT REVERSE ALL THAT GREAT LOL
GOSH IM SO DUMB!
OKAYY BUT IM THE QUEEN OF CLUMSY MOMENTSSS =]
AND I LOVE IT
IF I WASNT THAT WOULDNT BE ME

I WANT A TREE LIKE THAT IN MY BACKYARD! LOL