how could you

how would you feel if i looked at you like you hurt me so bad
you missed out on the best thing you could've had
you played your game real well
and in the end all you did was put my heart through hell
it sucks that you'll never be man enough to tell me to my face
but I'll never stoop low , you're not worth the chase
its like no matter what i said or did it was never good enough
not even when i was there helping you deal with stuff
this is the last time i'll let someone play me like this
because,for once, its you that i wont miss
life feels much better without the stress
even though at times i felt like such a mess
it took me a while to finally let out my true feelings
but i'm glad i will no longer have broken wings
every word you said was nothing but a lie
but over you, again i will never cry
i have to be strong for me and stop living life for others
someone like me, you'll never find another
i thought i'd always wanna be there for you
and i want to be but its hard to do
i have to be strong for myself and not let you get to me
until then i'll just check these boys out like its a shopping spree :)
(heehee)
well life goes on and it doesnt stop for anyone
as for me life has actually just begun

so readddyy

to put my poetry on here :)
so you can get a taste of what i do
one later tonight

MISTAKES

"ITS ONLY A MISTAKE IF YOU DONT LEARN FROM IT"




PUSH YOURSELF WHEN NOONE IS BEHIND YOU
MAKE YOURSELF SMILE WHEN NOONE IS AROUND TO MAKE YOU HAPPY
YOU'RE ONLY AS HAPPY AS YOU MAKE YOURSELF TO BE.
DONT REPAY KINDNESS, PASS IT ON
LOVE LIKE YOU'VE NEVER LOVED BEFORE
AND LAUGH WHEN NOONES TICKLING YOU :)

funny-ness

its funny
how it takes a guy 5.2 seconds to tell his friends
stuff about you
but a whole year to tell you how he really feels

ANYWAYS



so its freakin hot today
my computer says its 97 degrees
what a lie
haha i feel like someone turned the heater on by accident
instead of the AC!
(i did that last year)
HAHA
anyways i hate the feeling when i miss someone
its horrible
:[

PET PEEVES

1. LIARS!!!!
2. BREAK UPS THROUGH TEXTS
3. BOYS WHO DRINK AND TALK OUT OF THEIR ASS
(WHATEVER YOU TELL ME CAN WAIT TIL YOU'RE SOBER)
4. DON'T WAIT A YEAR TO SAY OH IM NOT READY FOR THIS
(IF YOU'RE NOT READY, DON'T LEAD ANYONE ON)
5. PEOPLE WHO PICK THEIR NOSES IN THE FREEWAY
(THERE'S THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE AROUND, WE'RE BOUND TO SEE YOU DIGGIN' FOR GOLD)
6. THE LOUDEST PEOPLE IN THE ROOM AT A PARTY, ARE THE WEAKEST
7. THE DRUNK GIRL THAT TELLS YOU SHES DRUNK
8. RACISTS!!! DON'T JUDGE WHO I'M DATING FOR THEIR RACE
9. PEOPLE WHO STARE!
(IF YOU LIKE SOMETHING JUST SPIT IT OUT!)
10. WHEN I SAY LEAVE ME ALONE, DON'T ASK WHY

love songs :]

OH MAN SPANISH LOVE SONGS ARE THE BEST :]

ONE OF MY FAVORITE SPANISH BANDS
SIN BANDERA
WHICH BROKE UP NOT THAT LONG AGO :[ I CRIED!!!
SORRY ABOUT THE VIDEO HAHA ITS THE ONLY ONE I COULD FIND WITH THIS SONG

CONFUSED

con·fused (kn-fyzd)
adj.
1. Being unable to think with clarity or act with understanding and intelligence.
2.
a. Lacking logical order or sense: a confused set of instructions.
b. Chaotic; jumbled: a confused mass of papers on the floor.


OR



not knowing what the fuck to think or do
heehee



well theres this guy, i flipped out at him
for no reason at all...
well actually i've been stressed out trying to make some decisions
that might or might not change my life drastically
:/
and yesterday i lashed out at him
because he hung up on me
so when he called me and i hung up on him...
blah blah blah
anyways
i felt like it was the right thing at the time
because i didnt wanna deal with noones bull
i dont need it , especially right now
but then he said "2 wrongs dont make a right"
he was so right :[
i feel like such a selfish bitch
he didnt deserve it
and i apologized but i was so messed up
at the time he didnt care to listen :[
i feel like such a bitch for the first time in my life
i hope i dont loose him
why do we lash out at the people who are there
most of the time when noone else is?
im such a dumbass

WHEEL CHAIR JIMMY

DRAKE A.K.A AUBREY GRAHAM IS AMAZING :]
A.K.A WHEEL CHAIR JIMMY
HAHA
HE'S IN A SHOW CALLED DEGRASSI ON MTV
MY LITTLE COUSIN GOT ME INTO IT ALSO HAHA
ANYWAYS CANT GET ENOUGH OF THIS DUDE
IM IN LOVEEEEE HAHAHA

amazing :]

TODAY WAS ONE OF THEE MOST AMAZING DAYS EVER
I DIDNT THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE BUT MY FAMILY
IT WAS A GOOD DAY AND FOR NO REASON AT ALL
I LOVE FEELING LIKE THIS
ANYWAYS WE MEXICANS PLAY THIS THING CALLED LOTERIA
ITS KINDA LIKE BINGO A LITTLE DIFFERENT
BUT I WON TODAY AND LETS JUST SAY I HAVENT HAD THAT MANY QUARTERS
IN A LONG TIME HAHAHA
I LOVE MY FAMILY
THEY ALWAYS HAVE THEIR WAY OF MAKING ME HAPPY
:]
I DONT NEED ANYTHING ELSE
BUT GOD FAMILY AND TRUE FRIENDS
THANKS TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE
IVE COME A LONG WAY FROM 2 YEARS AGO
AHHH I LOVE LIFE
SERIOUSLY CANT WAIT TO START SCHOOL

IM DONE

IM SO DONE FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF
LIFE GOES ON AND IM DONE BEING STUCK IN THE PAST
I REALLY NEED TO DO MORE THAN I SAY
I MISS BEING TRULY HAPPY
AND I FEEL LIKE I WONT BE TIL I DO WHAT I TRULY WANT
:]
CANT WAIT TO START SCHOOL

you

you made me wait so long
i lost interest
im done crying for you
life goes on

BARBIE NEEDS

TO STOP FALLING BACK IN THE LIES OF THAT BOY
I THINK IM MUCH BETTER THAN THAT
BUT AM I??
IM SURE SOMEONE SOMEDAY WILL TRULY APPRECIATE ME
LIKE I NEED TO BE APPRECIATED
IM SO TIRED OF THE LIES,PAIN,AND BULLSHIT
ITS BEEN A YEAR OF THE SAME SHIT
EVERYTIME THOSE OTHER STUPID GIRLS SCREW HIM OVER
IM STILL THERE
IM SO SICK OF IT
IDK IF ITS PAIN BECAUSE HE'S HURT ME SO MUCH
I CANT FEEL IT ANYMORE
BUT WHEN IM WITH HIM IM SO HAPPY
AND EVERYONE SEES IT
BUT WHY DOES HE HAVE TO HURT ME???
HE'S OBVIOUSLY NOT READY TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT PLAY
BULLSHIT GAMES
WHY DO I LIKE HIM SO MUCH??
HE SAID HE'S TURNING INTO EVERY OTHER GUY AND HE'S RIGHT
IM NOT GONNA DENY THAT
HE'S MAKING HIMSELF AN ASSHOLE ADDED TO THE LIST
BUT IM AFRAID TO LET HIM GO


FACT #12
I CANT GET ENOUGH OF HIM

R.I.P. CRISTIAN

YESTERDAY MORNING
MY MOMMA CALLED ME WHILE I WAS AT MY BROTHERS SOFTBALL GAME
AND TOLD ME THAT
MY 16 YEAR OLD COUSIN, CRISTIAN
PASSED AWAY
HE WILL BE MISSED
WE LOVE YOU

I LOVE DRAKEEEE

IM BAACK

SO ITS BEEN A WEEK SINCE IVE BEEN ON :]
I KNOW YA MISSED ME! LOL
WELL SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED
LETS SEE FOURTH OF JULY WEEKEND WAS A TRIP UP NORTH
AND IT WAS FUN :]
UMMM ARIZA GOT TRADED TO THE ROCKETS WHICH BROKE MY HEART
HOW FUCKING DUMB
AND
LAKERS GAINED A GREAT PLAYER
RON ARTEST
LETS HOPE HIM AND KOBE DONT KILL EACH OTHER
ON A BETTER NOTE
:]
I'VE BEEN HAVING HUMONGOUS SMILES ON MY FACE LATELY
:]
MAYBE ITS BECAUSE IM FINALLY STARTING TO LIKE MY LIFE
AND MY FAMOUS "FUCK MY LIFE" CAN GO SUCK IT LOL
WHO KNOWS
STAY TUNED