alone

theres nothing you cant do alone :]
trust me
i know im a strong person deep down
and i know i can get through this alone

YUP

EVERYTHING

I BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON :]
YUPP...
ITS TRUEEE
THATS HOW WE ALL LEARN OUR LESSONS
AHH IVE BEEN SICK LATELY FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS
AND I WENT TO THE DOCTOR YESTERDAY FINALLY
WELL I WAS RIGHT IT WAS MY ASTHMA :[
I FEEL LIKE A FAT KID THAT JUST RAN A MILE
ITS COOL I GOT NEW MEDS AND GOT UPGRADED TO A NEW INHALER LOL
JK
WHATEVER ANYWAYS
I MISS MY MENSO
DANNGGGG!!!!

DOMINIC CRUZ A.K.A DOM

THIS GUY

ONE OF THE BESTEST PEOPLE THAT HAVE WALKED
INTO MY LIFE.
CONSIDER HIM ONE OF MY BESTEST FRIENDS
HE IS SUCH A GOOD LISTENER
AND WHEN HE GETS MAD ITS PRETTY WEIRD
HE'S MELLOW MOST OF THE TIME
ANYWAY HES 21!!!
GONNA PARTY TONIGHT!!!
WHOHOOOOO!!!
HAHA
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING DOM
YOU KNOW THE HELL I WENT THROUGH AND CAME OUTTA
THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME
EVERY STEP OF THE WAY
LOVE YA DORK!!!

REALITY CHECK/MOVING ON

have you every wondered how hard someday it might be to loose the people you love??
i have lost many people in my life
some went to heaven, some went who knows where
but have you ever noticed when you loose someone you really love
you loose a part of yourself??
its funny because no matter who it is you always manage to make it through it all
no matter how hard the fall is.
no matter how bad someone hurt you
you always learn to let go
thats why i love the friends and family that stuck by my side
when i went through domestic violence and whatnot
these people made me strong!
but have you ever noticed how moving on seems so hard at first
but in the end its the best thing you could have ever done???
its hard to think about moving on at first but once you do it it feels so good!
so to all those people stuck in the past,
move on, because trust me
life on this side is so much better
i know the word LIFE
has so much behind it
but hey its beautiful and you only get one(unless youre a cat)
so enjoy it while it lasts :]
have fun and forget those who hurt you because in the end
theyre the ones that live with regret:]
learn how to forgive because its the first step to forgetting :]
and always ALWAYS keep GOD on your side
because he's a for sure that you will forever be strong and protected
AND keeping your head up is a must!
dont let little shit get to you
if someone doesnt want you in their life
then you damn sure dont need them in yours!
everyone is beautiful in their own way :]
remember be yourself and dont change for anyone
if they dont like you for you
they dont deserve you at all :]

MIGUELS THOUGHT

LOL...
WELL MY GOOD FRIEND MIGUEL ASKED ME "WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN UP TO"
I SAID "HMMM JUST LOOKING FOR A JOB AND A GOOD MASSAGE THERAPY SCHOOL"
HE SAID "OH YOU SHOULD WRITE THAT IN YOUR BLOG"
SO HERE I AM LOL
LOVE YA MIGUEL!!!!
ANYWAYS ITS TRUE
IM TRYING TO GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK
FOR SOME ODD REASON, SOMETHING ALWAYS
GETS IN THE WAY OF THAT!!
:/
BUT IM DONE WITH THE BULLSHIT
GOTTA GET MY LIFE TOGETHER SOMETIME
AND THAT TIME HAS COME
CANT SIT HERE WASTING MY TIME ON POINTLESS
LOADS OF CRAP THATS JUST GONNA PILE UP LATER
I GUESS COSMETOLOGY WASNT ENOUGH, DONT GET ME WRONG
I LOVE IT
BUT I NEED SOMETHING ELSE TO DO
HMMM LETS SEE HOW GOOD I DO :]

I LOVE MY LAKERS!!!

I ALWAYS HAD FAITH

AND ALWAYS WILL!!!!
LOVE THEM!!!

KILL MY BAD HABIT

HAHA
SERIOUSLY I HAVE A PROBLEM EVERY GUY I'VE DATED , ACTED LIKE ONE AND
PRETTY MUCH IS ONE!
SO IVE COME TO A CONCLUSION
IM



AND I NEED TO BREAK THAT HABIT
!!!
THE WORSE HABIT IVE CAUGHT IN A WHILE
I DESERVE BETTER.
HERES TO MY NEW BEGINNING
IM DONE WITH THESE LAME ASSHOLES
WHOS WITH ME!? LOL

gymmm

my gym time look!!!
:]
haha i love being there just knowing
im doing something for myself
to better myself and for once
not for someone else
lately i've lost motivation
but like someone once told me

"motivate yourself because yourself is all you have"

which is totaly true
i came into this world alone and im leaving
the same way
so here's to worrying about myself for once
i think its about time i deserve it

SANTA MARIA CA.

COUSINS <3

US AND GRAMMA

ITS UP NORTH
I LOVE MY FAMILY :]

WHY?

THE ONLY QUESTION I KEEP ASKING MYSELF IS WHY??
IM SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT WHY YOU CONTINUE TO HURT ME
WHY???
I CANT CONTINUE THIS FRIENDSHIP IF EVEN WHEN
WE'RE JUST FRIENDS YOU HURT ME
YOURE MY BEST FRIEND, EVEN AFTER
WHAT WE TRIED TO MAKE OF OUR FRIENDSHIP DIDNT WORK OUT
I STUCK AROUND AND WATCHED YOU GET HURT BY SOMEONE ELSE
HELPED YOU GET THROUGH IT EVEN THOUGH IT HURT ME TO SEE YOU GET HURT
WHEN YOU'D COME TO ME TALKING ABOUT A NEW GIRL
WHY DID I SIT THERE AND LET YOU??
MAYBE BECAUSE I WAS HAPPY YOU TRUSTED ME ENOUGH TO TELL YOU.
ONCE YOURE OVER THEM IM BACK IN THE PICTURE
WHY???
DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF??
I WANTED TO HANG OUT WITH YOU TODAY...
TEXT YOU TO SEE IF IT WAS FINE AND YOU REPLY WITH
IM KINDA INVOLVED WITH SOMEONE AND I DONT WANT THINGS TO BE LIKE BEFORE
AND YOU EXPECT ME NOT TO FEEL LIKE SOMEONE PUNCHED ME IN THE FACE?
I NEVER SHUT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO OR SAY TO ME!
I GUESS THIS IS WHERE I SHOULD THINK ABOUT THE PEOPLE I TRUST WITH MY HEART THAT KEEP SLAMMING IT ON THE FUCKING FLOOR
YOU, BEING MY BEST FRIEND, OF ALL PEOPLE I DIDNT EXPECT YOU TO

ONLY THING I CAN ASK MYSELF IS WHY???


WHEN YOURE READY FOR SOMETHING REAL...
OR SOMEONE THAT WONT EVER HURT YOU OR LIE TO YOU
MAYBE THATS WHEN YOU SHOULD CALL ME
UNTIL THEN GET OVER YOURSELF

i can make it

ive always loved this song :]
hopefully i can