I LOST MY RELATIONSHIP...
I LOST MY DOG...
I LOST A VERY GOOD FRIEND OF MINE
R.I.P. BETTINA
AND I LOST MY CHANCE AT STARTING MY LIFE OVER
THIS DOESN'T MEAN MY LIFE IS OVER AT ALL
THIS MEANS I SHOULDN'T GIVE UP.
IF ANYTHING THESE THINGS SHOULD MAKE ME STRONGER,
BUT ITS KINDA HARD WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE NO SUPPORT FROM THE PEOPLE YOU CARE
THE MOST ABOUT.
I HAVE ALSO LEARNED THAT MANY OF THE PEOPLE I CALLED FRIENDS, ARE NOT.
AS I CONTINUE TO GET OLDER I LEARN THAT LIFE JUST GET HARDER.
BUT I SEE THIS AS A LONG JOURNEY THAT WONT GO THE WAY I WANT IT TO,
IF I DON'T CHASE MY DREAMS THE WAY I SHOULD.
I KNOW I GAVE UP ON MYSELF MANY TIMES, ONLY
BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WASN'T STRONG ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH THINGS.
I CONSIDERED MYSELF A WEAK PERSON.
I LOST TOUCH WITH GOD BECAUSE I WAS ASHAMED OF MYSELF.
BUT JUST BECAUSE THIS YEAR STARTED OFF BAD, DOESN'T MEAN I'M GONNA
LET IT CONTINUE THIS WAY. NOPE.
NO MORE SADNESS I HAVE TO EVENTUALLY LEARN THAT LIFE IS ALWAYS GONNA HAVE ITS DOWNFALLS,AND NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS TO KEEP MY HEAD UP, I WILL.
I RECONNECTED MY LIFE WITH GOD &&
IT HASN'T ALL BEEN SO BAD BECAUSE I FELL IN LOVE WITH RUNNING,
WHICH MAKES ME FEEL GOOD AND PROUD OF MYSELF,
I LEARNED TO LOVE & RESPECT MYSELF.
I ALSO LEARNED THAT NO MATTER HOW BAD A PERSON HURT ME, I CAN FORGIVE THEM.
I'VE BECOME A STRONGER PERSON AND ADDED SOME CONFIDENCE TO IT.
I AM ME AGAIN!
I MISSED ME ....
BUT HERE'S TO A NEW BEGINNING,
MY STUDYING WILL PAY OFF IN JUNE HOPEFULLY AND
MY PATH TO SUCCESS WILL BE BRIGHT.
THANK YOU ALL WHO CONTINUE TO MOTIVATE ME AND PUSH ME TO BETTER MYSELF :)
GOODBYE NEGATIVITY,
HELLO HAPPY-CONFIDENT-POSITIVE BARBIE(: