bahahaha

my ex is a tard im glad
finally he'll learn his lesson

anyways



heck yeah i love tibor hes such an amazing friend
sometimes i dunno what i'd do without him =]k
moving on lol

yeah so thats a bruise from my good friend lawrence
we were joking around though
so its all good its funny i sent him this but in reality
this bruise was bigger =]
lol fun huh?

meet me

dunno why i love this song but i do =]

TRUE STORY

WOW ITS FUNNY HOW WHEN YOU HAD ME
YOU GAVE A SHIT LESS IF I WAS THERE OR NOT
YOU WERE SO SELF CENTERED AND DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE'S FEELINGS BUT YOURS
ITS FUNNY HOW YOU WANT ME BACK AND THINK I'LL BE THERE.
IF YOU DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT THEN WHY GIVE SHOULD I GIVE A SHIT NOW??
SERIOUSLY GROW UP AND OUT OF YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD AND WELCOME
TO REAL LIFE, THE LIFE YOU DECIDED TO SHUT ME OUT OF.
OPEN YOUR EYES.
YOU COULDVE HAD THE BEST THING EVER
MY LOVE, MY LIFE, MY TRUST, ETC.
BUT YOU DECIDED TO STOMP ON MY FEELINGS AND SPIT ON THE PIECES
I ALWAYS SAID I'D BE THERE FOR YOU BUT IF I STAY THAT MEANS
I'LL NEVER MOVE ON
SO THIS IS A FUCK YOU TO THE GUYS THAT DON'T REALIZE,CARE, OR THINK
ABOUT THEY HAVE TIL THEY LOOSE IT....
I KNOW YOU WANT ME BACK BUT YOU LET ME GO
YOU GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO MOVE ON AND NOW THAT I'M TALKING TO SOMEONE
THAT ACTUALLY APPRECIATES ME YOU WANNA CONFUSE ME BUT NO!
YOU'RE NOT A WORRY IN MY LIFE ANYMORE =]
I'M SORRY BUT I'M GONNA SHINE WITH OR WITHOUT YOU
I'M DONE CRYING OVER YOUR STUPID GAMES OR GOING ALONG WITH THEM
YOU EFFED UP NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO THE ONLY PERSON THAT EVER CARED ABOUT YOU
SO GOODBYE OLD FRIEND =]

CANDY

PROBABLY THE BEST CANDY EVER INVENTED!!





HAHAHA OH MY
OKAY SO YESTERDAY I HAD KFC
AND IT MADE ME SICK TO MY STOMACH IT SUCKED SO BAD!!!!
IDK MAYBE IT WAS FOOD POISONING LOL
WHATEVER STUPID KERNEL AND HIS POPCORN CHICKEN
THATS WHAT I GET THOUGH I DONT EVEN LIKE IT THAT MUCH
BLAHHH
OKAY AND YOU KNOW WHAT!!?!
IM SO CLUMSY BUT WHATEVER PEOPLE LOVE ME RIGHT? LOL
ITS OKAY ALRIGHT MAYBE SOMETHING EVEN MORE EXCITING THAN THIS WILL HAPPEN TODAY =]
AND I CAN WRITE ABOUT IT
C YA!!

domestic violence

theres many reasons why i've kept quiet for so long...
1.i dont like peoples pitty
2.dont try to be my friend because you feel sorry for me
and
3.im just like everyone else....except this is what happend..

so im finally ready to come out to the world about the situation
i went through....its been a couple years but i'm finally ready to come out with it
i'm doing it to teach people that it can happen to anyone,
anyone at all.

It all began with this nice boy i met through a friend we started dating and everything seemed perfect,i brought him around my family, let him hang with us and get to know us. I wasn't afraid of giving him my heart. He seemed like the "perfect" guy...so i thought. His family hated me for some reason, which is awkward, because usually my personality wins people over...but i guess it didn't this time....after 6 months of dating my "dream guy" totally turned his attitude around as if the little devil sitting on his shoulder told him to start treating me like crap. All of a sudden this jealousy came out of nowhere. He tried to tell me i couldn't have any guy friends when he knew,since the beginning,that most of my friends were guys,what to wear and when to speak. He would yell at me for stuff and usually put me down so much that my self esteem was sweeping the floor along with my face. I would stare at the ground when i walked because i felt so low. ugly,fat,whore,slut,bitch,worthless was all i heard from his mouth. Never did i get a "beautiful" like in the beginning. At the time i was enrolled in beauty school and felt like i didn't fit in with anyone.I didn't belong there =[ life really sucked....this whole time my parents thought he was the best boyfriend ever...he put up a front around them he treated me like a princess. When we'd go to public places he'd make me walk at least 3 feet behind him....who knows maybe because he was embarrassed of my fatass....i could've left him but he said things would get worse....the first time he put a hand on me i couldn't believe it .... we were at the mall and of course i was 3 feet behind him, an old friend was walking towards me, a guy, and i tried to avoid him talking to me just because i knew how things would get.... my friend walks up to me and with no bad intentions gives me a hug...A HUG! and asks how i'm doing....well at this point psycho turns around and sees me, do you know how weak i felt when he turned around, its unexplainable....i was horrified when i saw him walk towards me...he put his arm around me and i looked at the ground,as always, my friend says "oh is this your boyfriend?" i was afraid to answer...psycho replies "yeah" and i'm looking at the floor still...my friend says nice to meet you, gives me a goodbye hug and a "nice seeing you again."...ugh and this is when all hell breaks loose. as we're walking away im thinking to myself "RUN" but of course i was scared as always, but psycho says "wtf was that about?! wait til we get in the car" i can feel my body go numb i wanted someone to help me....we walk towards the car and i start to cry , he says "you want to make those tears worth it?" and i feel a hand fly up at my face......i couldn't believe at that moment what had happened.... i always said if a guy EVER puts a hand on me i'll knock him out...but i guess you need to put yourself in my shoes to understand....since then the relationship never went back to normal...it was a hit a day at least one hit and screams, it went on for 2 years...2 YEARS!!! i never thought my life would be the same....i was afraid to tell anyone and i was afraid to admit this when i flinched every time a guy friend would play fight with me. i never thought I'd look back at this as a lesson....but i do now...welll eventually he tried to force me to marry him he gave my dad a sob story and asked for permission to do it and my dad and his big heart accepted him...remember my family didn't know squat! when he asked me of course i said "hell no!"
and of course i got slapped ...hold on...im actually breaking into tears its weird coming out with it but one day i was going to....it feels good to let it out!!! thanks DOM for your support for being there for me when i was afraid to tell anyone! ....and my family has done so much to keep me strong they just found out like 7 months ago....i love them.....sooo theres so much more but i might as well write a book.... okay so i eventually got fed up with getting hit for no reason...no reason at all......and one day he was driving me home from the store and of course he was arguing with me over something dumb(A GUY LOOKING AT ME AT THE GROCERY STORE). he then continued to say something nasty about one of my family members and i looked at him and said "what would you do if i tell my family what you've been doing to me??" he laughs and says "you would never ,you're too stupid and you wouldn't and you know what FUCK your family!","don't talk about my family!" i said "you know what i dont deserve this im worth much more" he laughs and stops at a stop sign and i open the door i start to get out and he grabs my hair i turn and punch him in his jaw(it felt so good at the moment) and i said "im done i cant do this" and i run....run like the wind...i felt free....he then harassed me for days i changed my number 3 times! every message he left said my life was gonna suck and i would never be happy again haha . .. wow look at me now!i never thought i'd be a victim of domestic violence but look how far i've come...yeah i was depressed and used to hurt myself...but look at me now all those tears all those hits and all those put downs made me stronger!!! and its all thanks to my family and close friends who were there for me to pick me up im still working on my self esteem ...i love you all

"the only people you need in your life are the ones that need you in theirs"

domestic violence facts


luckily i wasnt;;

HEE HEE

THESE ARE PROBABLY THE WARMEST THINGS IN THE WORLD
I LOVE TOE SOCKs MY BROTHER IS FRIGHTENED TO DEATH
BY THEM LOL
I LOVE THROWING THEM AT HIM LOL
ANYWAYSS

BREANNA LEE HUGHES
HMMM WHAT TO SAY
THIS GIRL IS SO AWESOME SHE'S NOT ONLY THE BEST
S.I.L
BUT SHES BEEN THERE FOR ME I LOVE HER
SHES THE MOST AMAZING FRIEND GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH
BESIDES SUSY MY BESTIE
WE CAN CALL EACH OTHER bitches and hoes AND KNOW
WE'RE NOT SERIOUS LOL
SHES MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER ALSO
A SISTER AT HEART =]
THANKS BREEEBECAUSE EVERYBODY NEEDS A LITTLE CAPTAIN IN THEM =]

hmmm just a though

man i laughed for days when i saw this
i dunno why
but anyways


so true
so i hung out with lettuce last night to talk to him
and yeah things will never change
im done with lettuce and apple
ak is right im done waiting im moving on.

i deserve something better
someone that will appreciate me and
not some clown that likes to play with my heart
not some jerk
soon i'll write out my story of why
im so careful with my heart =/
its a pretty long story but the only reason i didnt come
out with before is because i didnt want people to feel sorry for me
i hate attention i hate spotlights
its been almost 2 years almost since the incident
i like to be mingled in with the crowd
k well soon i'll come out with it
but very few people know
alright til next time enjoy my little boner dude =]

KEEP IN MIND THAT IM NOT 2 TIMING
IM TALKING TO THESE GUYS K?!


okay so theres these 2 boys
lets call them apple and lettuce haha
apple is sometimes very immature but when he's around me hes super sweet
and i fall for it everytime i mean he doesnt care when his friends are around
but its like a whatever good
but then we're not together and he's like "i dont care what you do"
or "dont wait for me, get a boyfriend if you want"
but on friday nights when i go out he questions everything
who im with, what im doing, WHY IM THERE!?.
why ask if you dont care!!!
he'll forget about me but when he wants me around he calls me
and expects me to be there when he acts like he does nothing wrong!
okay now lettuce
he' so so sweet and caring and he always wants to know how im doing
HE HAS MY HEART!!!
but theres times when he just straight out acts like a jerk
and he wont acknowledge that i'm probbaly the only person that'll put up with his
shit! lol i mean hes amazing but at times he confuses me he acts like he wants to be with me but then a new girl notices him and its goodbye barbie.
when she plays him he wants me to be there for him
and i dont mind because i love being there for people
but it makes me feel crappy that a bitch is treating him like this!
and he doesnt care that im the only one who will ever notice him
the same with apple ugghhh
im so confused!
and lettuce will make plans with me but then he'll leave me hanging for his "other" girlfriends
he left me hanging on my birthday and sometimes i call him and he says "im with my friend its her birthday" wtf?! did you forget that im probably the only girl that sticks around after all the shit you put her through
i mean you've said sorry for it but keep doing it! idk
maybe i need to stop talking to these jerks
oh and apple he screws around with other girls and
thinks its okay!?
why treat me like your gf when im not!
if you want it to be that way then let me know and maybe it'll be different

LAWRENCE A.K.A EL

HAHAHAHA SO THIS ISNT THE BEST PIC OF HIM
BUUUUUTTT HE IS ONE OF THE MOST AMAZINGLY
CARING AND SOMETIMES ANNOYING GUYS THAT I KNOW
HE MAKES ME CRY HE MAKES ME LAUGH
BUT MOST OF ALL HE MAKES ME SMILE
HES A GREAT LISTENER AND HAS THE BEST ADVICE
I DUNNO SOMETIMES I'D BE LOST WITHOUT HIM
BUT YEA HE HAS MY HEART FROM DAY ONE
ALWAYS WILL =]
HE KNOWS IT



yup
for some reason at times i've tried to get rid of him
especially when he confuses meee =/
and its hard hahaha
because even though he gets me down he can
pick me up from it
=]
i can always count on him for anything
the smile on my face is usually from him but
im glad we're friends
God knew i needed someone like him in my life

bahahaha

hahaha okay so i recently
started this obsession with hello kitty
its super cute
my rearview mirror is hello kitty =]
but anyways

4 hours to see her ARITI my little cousin
she's a huge part of my life =]
she always reminds me how much she loves me
and how much she looks up to me we're more than cousins
shes my sister =]
we're silly and obnoxious when we're together
but everyone loves us haha
im her diary shes mine
my world my heart my cousin =]

this pic says it all hahahahaha
jk so i get bored what else do i do
take pics of random things im awesome dude
so im working on my confidence and whatnot and i think
im getting the hang of it
=]
i guess loving myself isnt so hard after all

MIMS

OKAY SO I OFFICIALLY SAW MY FIRST
FAMOUS PERSON EVER AND LOVED HIM
HE WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES AT FIRST I WAS
STAR STRUCK
BUT THEN I REALIZED HES A PRETTY HUMBLE
DUDE HE PLAYED BASKETBALL IN THE RHS VS. 99.1
GAME AND IT WAS COO
HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND MY BROTHR AND TOLD HIM
"DAMN DUDE IM OUTTA SHAPE"
LOL
FUNNY STUFF BUT HE HAS AN AMAZING SMILE =]
CUTE GUY I'D SAY BUT I SNAPPED
A QUICK PIC OF HIM =]

BLAME IT

Jamie Foxx ft. T-Pain NEW MUSIC VIDEO "Blame It"


"BLAME IT" on this song
i feel like drinking haha
except for the slutty parts lol
but it love it, when it comes on i start dancing
=]
im in a good mood =]
basketball is helping me loose weight =]
clay park i luff you lol
after all the stupid things i did when i drank
i dont blame it on the ah,ah,ah,ah,ah,alcohol
good times good times
hahaha =]

<3RADIO KILLAAA

Rockin' That Thang


HAHA MAN HIS VOICE JUST GETS ME
HES AWESOME
I LOVE LOVE HIS MUSIC
AHHH =]

<3family, life

why is it?
why is it that when things always start coming together
something always goes wrong?
shit gets rough and im tired of dealin
its crazy how things can change form one minute to another
i think im gonna relapse
seriously all this stress is making me break out
i dont feel like looking pretty for anyone anymore and
its sad that when you trust someone with your all they go
and screw you over this goes for family, "friends"
wtff is that about?!
weird idk who to trust anymore =[
my heart/head/body hurts and
i let all this happen to me thats why!
fuck everyone someone buy me a book thats called
how to be a bitch for dummies i need it