just BARBIE

oh my gosh im sick of people trying to figure me out
its not very hard!
just ask me
I LOVE DISNEYLAND!
im clumsy
i cry when im mad
im a sucker for love songs
I LOVE MUSIC OH MY GOSH!
and boys that create their own
OH MY GOSHHHH
even better

i fall way too fast
all girls do they just dont admit it
i dont know how to deal with things
im just a girl trying to find myself in this horrible world!
sometimes i get so sick of things
i deal with them in the worst ways
im trying to get my act together
i wanna look 21 but its impossible!
i laugh at everything=]
and sometimes at the wrong times =[
i take things to heart
or as people say "up the butt"
i dont like to fight so if you ever hear "barbie got in a fight"
best believe i didnt start it
cant stand when girls say "why are you loking at my man!?"
ugh its annoying
i hate hearing my own voice and my laugh is annoying too
i love to smile at people
i wave at strangers,dance in my car,and say "hey" to weird people =]
if you dont get along with me you must've done something REALLY bad to me
i have a HUMONGOUS HEART and people take advantage of it =[
i let people walk all over me just so they know how much i really care
my FAMILY is my WORLD!
LOVE is the best word in the world
even if i dont have a boyfriend i love VALENTINES DAY
i love skittles the regular kind
i miss the feeling of knowing someones there no matter what!
my biggest fear is dissappointing my parents
i have a DRINKING problem
colbie collait is the shit
i like weird songs...listen to the juno soundtrack...im talking weird lol
i love to cuddle,and kisses on my forehead =]
my hair isnt perfect but its soft =]
i always try new things because you only live once
and i'd like to die knowing i did everything i wanted to even if it got me in trouble
my brother pablo,the basketbaLL coach is my hero he chased his dreams
and accomplished
my oldest brother victor is liek my dad when he tells me he loves me i know he does because his heart is just as big as mine HE accomplished falling in TRUE love
my sister sticks it out shes a fighter physically and mentally shes put herself through a lot
but she stuck it out and teaches me how to be strong
and me
im still heartbroken and waiting for someone to fix that
i was beaten, cheated on and lied to so much i was made a fool of
and im willing to not blame anyone else for it =]
i love the BEACH its my FAVORITEST PLACE in the world =]
and it doesnt take much to make me happy
i have the greatest besties in the world
boys:ALEX CARRILLO AND STEVE MORA
GIRLS:SUSANA MARRON,MICHELLE AND CHRISSA and mostimportantly MY SISTER
my relationship with my moms not perfect but i love that woman
im a DADDYS GIRL he spoils me
but im not a show off
i REALLY dislike SHOWOFFS
ALL I WANT IS FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE ME LIKE I DESERVE IT

<3 man oh man

so things are getting kinda crazy
im getting tired of feeling alone
i know im ready for another relationship
but i dont wanna rush it
im gonna wait for that ONE guy
who will come and sweep me off my feet
=] does that even exist anymore?

you, yeah, YOU!

ITS NOT EVERYDAY THAT I CAN SAY
THAT SOMEONE LIKE YOU MAKES ME SMILE EVERYDAY
YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY
OUR FRIENDSHIP IS SO RELAXING
YOU SOUND FUNNY WHEN YOU SCREAM
YOU DO THINGS NORMAL PEOPLE WONT DO FOR ME
YOU HAVE YOUR OWN WAY OF CHEERING ME UP
YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I NEED TO VENT CRAPPY STUFF
AND YET YOU NEVER GET TIRED OF ME
YOU DONT CHANGE WHEN YOUR FRIENDS ARE AROUND
YOU'RE SO REAL !
WHEN IM AROUND YOU I DUNNO HOW TO DEAL
WHY YOU STILL STICK AROUND I STILL DONT GET
AT FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A BET
YOU'VE CHANGED ME IN YOUR OWN WAY
WHEN I WATCH A MOVIE, WITH YOU I WANNA LAY =]
BECAUSE YOUR ARMS ARE SO AMAZING
AND WITHOUT THEM I'D GO CRAZY
WHY DIDNT I MEET YOU BEFORE?!
WHEN I WATCH YOU PLAY BASKETBALL
I SIT..AND THINK..ABOUT...
WHY ITS FOR YOU THAT I CONTINUE TO FALL...
PERFECTION IS WHAT I'D CALL IT
IN YOUR OWN LITTLE WAY OF COURSE =]
YOU'RE THE FRIEND I KNOW WILL ALWAYS BE THERE
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO...........

WEIRDISH DAY

UMMM IDK WAS MOODY
R.I.P GABRIELA
MY SISTER
WOULDVE BEEN 29 TODAY =]

parties

oh my gosh i had fun this weekend
=]
i was nurse barbie =]
and someone said helloooo nurse
made me feel kinda good =]
lol
anyways today i spent time with my family in santa ana
pretty chill nothing better than the fam to make me laugh
i love them
ummm yeah it was a rocky friday
but the weekend made up for it =]
im ready for a new poem
are you?

nah you're not =]

the people who mean the world to me

oh my gosh im so thankful for everyone whos been there
every since i decided to change my mentality
its so hard!

i will always miss those days =/
im so happy lately and i only have certain people
to thank =]
especially lawrence
hes been there so much i know he gets so sick of me
but all i know is i love being friends with him =]
i love his company hes one of the best people in this world besides my family
thanks so much L!
hes the reason why this smile wont ever fade again
=]

if you ever need someone to rely on
you can borrow him =]

ugh

today was such a frustrating day
seriously dude
its so dumb how people only care about their
own feelings
anyways
i love my friends seriously idk what id do
without them
theyre there for me and would choke anyone anyday =]
lol
i love em
im so happy right now i cant explain it =]
cant wait til friday
pictures! yay!
being happy is what i live for now
this is a new beginning
shununununun
=]
lalalalalalalala
idk wat else to write =]