domestic violence

theres many reasons why i've kept quiet for so long...
1.i dont like peoples pitty
2.dont try to be my friend because you feel sorry for me
and
3.im just like everyone else....except this is what happend..

so im finally ready to come out to the world about the situation
i went through....its been a couple years but i'm finally ready to come out with it
i'm doing it to teach people that it can happen to anyone,
anyone at all.

It all began with this nice boy i met through a friend we started dating and everything seemed perfect,i brought him around my family, let him hang with us and get to know us. I wasn't afraid of giving him my heart. He seemed like the "perfect" guy...so i thought. His family hated me for some reason, which is awkward, because usually my personality wins people over...but i guess it didn't this time....after 6 months of dating my "dream guy" totally turned his attitude around as if the little devil sitting on his shoulder told him to start treating me like crap. All of a sudden this jealousy came out of nowhere. He tried to tell me i couldn't have any guy friends when he knew,since the beginning,that most of my friends were guys,what to wear and when to speak. He would yell at me for stuff and usually put me down so much that my self esteem was sweeping the floor along with my face. I would stare at the ground when i walked because i felt so low. ugly,fat,whore,slut,bitch,worthless was all i heard from his mouth. Never did i get a "beautiful" like in the beginning. At the time i was enrolled in beauty school and felt like i didn't fit in with anyone.I didn't belong there =[ life really sucked....this whole time my parents thought he was the best boyfriend ever...he put up a front around them he treated me like a princess. When we'd go to public places he'd make me walk at least 3 feet behind him....who knows maybe because he was embarrassed of my fatass....i could've left him but he said things would get worse....the first time he put a hand on me i couldn't believe it .... we were at the mall and of course i was 3 feet behind him, an old friend was walking towards me, a guy, and i tried to avoid him talking to me just because i knew how things would get.... my friend walks up to me and with no bad intentions gives me a hug...A HUG! and asks how i'm doing....well at this point psycho turns around and sees me, do you know how weak i felt when he turned around, its unexplainable....i was horrified when i saw him walk towards me...he put his arm around me and i looked at the ground,as always, my friend says "oh is this your boyfriend?" i was afraid to answer...psycho replies "yeah" and i'm looking at the floor still...my friend says nice to meet you, gives me a goodbye hug and a "nice seeing you again."...ugh and this is when all hell breaks loose. as we're walking away im thinking to myself "RUN" but of course i was scared as always, but psycho says "wtf was that about?! wait til we get in the car" i can feel my body go numb i wanted someone to help me....we walk towards the car and i start to cry , he says "you want to make those tears worth it?" and i feel a hand fly up at my face......i couldn't believe at that moment what had happened.... i always said if a guy EVER puts a hand on me i'll knock him out...but i guess you need to put yourself in my shoes to understand....since then the relationship never went back to normal...it was a hit a day at least one hit and screams, it went on for 2 years...2 YEARS!!! i never thought my life would be the same....i was afraid to tell anyone and i was afraid to admit this when i flinched every time a guy friend would play fight with me. i never thought I'd look back at this as a lesson....but i do now...welll eventually he tried to force me to marry him he gave my dad a sob story and asked for permission to do it and my dad and his big heart accepted him...remember my family didn't know squat! when he asked me of course i said "hell no!"
and of course i got slapped ...hold on...im actually breaking into tears its weird coming out with it but one day i was going to....it feels good to let it out!!! thanks DOM for your support for being there for me when i was afraid to tell anyone! ....and my family has done so much to keep me strong they just found out like 7 months ago....i love them.....sooo theres so much more but i might as well write a book.... okay so i eventually got fed up with getting hit for no reason...no reason at all......and one day he was driving me home from the store and of course he was arguing with me over something dumb(A GUY LOOKING AT ME AT THE GROCERY STORE). he then continued to say something nasty about one of my family members and i looked at him and said "what would you do if i tell my family what you've been doing to me??" he laughs and says "you would never ,you're too stupid and you wouldn't and you know what FUCK your family!","don't talk about my family!" i said "you know what i dont deserve this im worth much more" he laughs and stops at a stop sign and i open the door i start to get out and he grabs my hair i turn and punch him in his jaw(it felt so good at the moment) and i said "im done i cant do this" and i run....run like the wind...i felt free....he then harassed me for days i changed my number 3 times! every message he left said my life was gonna suck and i would never be happy again haha . .. wow look at me now!i never thought i'd be a victim of domestic violence but look how far i've come...yeah i was depressed and used to hurt myself...but look at me now all those tears all those hits and all those put downs made me stronger!!! and its all thanks to my family and close friends who were there for me to pick me up im still working on my self esteem ...i love you all

"the only people you need in your life are the ones that need you in theirs"

domestic violence facts


luckily i wasnt;;